A moronic post

Here I am with an effort to bring out my frustration here. Don't know really how much it'll help my cause. But one thing is for sure, that it wont come back either and hit you hard. Somewhere (don't know where), I get a feeling that I may not have those creatures who can listen to all my bull-shit thoughts and allow me to let my heart open.
After having a deep thought ( for around 5 min), I decided to come up with this moronic thing. And again I am confused what would be the next thing to add here when I come online next time. I'm sure, that also would be something related to frustration only. Well, that is something that I'll think later.
I was on the road today evening at around 7 PM. I was like lost somewhere. I wanted to go to some decent place where I can sit and do a bit of shopping. But to my utter surprise, I could not find my way. That 20-25 min duration was like a mirror image of what I am going through these days. Each single step was taking me one step back rather than taking me where I had planned to go. This is nothing, but probably a guilt of having not done something which I could or should have. This constant feeling is letting me feel demean and on top of that, it relates to other things that either I wanna avoid or forget.
Fuck.... I am off now...